It has its ups and downs...

The ups cause the downs, but the downs don't cause the ups, if that makes any sense. To quote my favorite actor, "I was never farther from my goal than when I was standing right next to it." That's the damn truth right there.

I guess it's in a way what I asked for. Where you see coincidence, I see providence. But then again, what would an atheist say to that? I suppose it really wouldn't matter, because I'm not one of them, but it might make things a bit clearer.

I'm not making any sense here, am I?

Right now, there would be nothing better than hours of time to do exactly what I want to do. And it's not that there isn't the time. Really it's the capacity to do what I want to do that I happen to lack. Money's not an issue. No resource is out of my grasp right now that I want. Except for that 1968 Ford Mustang Shelby Gt, but that's not the issue here. What the issue is about is the manner in which the time is passed that I have control over. And I really feel powerless about some things right now.

So there's a wedding tomorrow of a family friend. Should be a nice ceremony. And later that night, our party here at our place. There's sort of some drama building with that, but I don't want any of that shit to get played out. Let me just say this: There will be someone, at least one person if not more, at the door, and if your ass isn't supposed to be here or if your ass is runnin' a muck, then you can expect to be stopped at the door or booted. Cuz shit, I love my people, but seriously, when I haven't talked or hung with you in almost 2 years, who the fuck are you to come and get on me for not inviting you. C'mon now, right? Right.

On a closing note about tomorrow:

B.Y.O.B.