Life's busy lately...

But under control. That's all I can ask for. Actually, not true. Because I work hard so I have every right to ask for the things that I want.

Work's cool as of late. Always is. I get tired from work, not tired of work. Yesterday I put in 11 hours, with the possibility of having had to go 14 hours. But I opted out of it. Something at work is scaring me though, seriously. I'm afraid of even saying it to anyone, but it's seriously scaring me. I thought it was just my imagination for a minute, but then I looked at the situation from an outside point of view, and I'm not crazy.

School's good this quarter. Never more than 2 classes a day. Most days have a 2 hour class, but they're manageable. There's always at least some time for downtime or relaxing too, even if it's only an hour or so. And I sleep enough too. Yesterday I slept for 9 hours. Can't argue with that.

There's something missing from life right about now. I know what it is, but I don't feel as though I have a way of getting what I want out of this world. But then again, it really doesn't matter, since I have nothing to leave behind, or anyone to leave it to.

I was on the phone the other night until about 3am and I realized while talking to this friend, that possibly, she's the only one I could rightfully call a friend. At least out of everyone I thought I could trust. Everyone wants something, everyone's got an agenda. I can't trust them to do what's beneficial for the both of us, only for themselves. I'm not looking for pity here. After all, in a way, it's what I asked for. Go fig.

Smile, because life is good.