I'm grumpy right now, but I need to speak on this...

I'm grumpy because I'm really sore and tired right now, but some things can't wait until we feel happy enough to go and talk about them.

Winter break wasn't too different from most breaks. Out of sight, out of mind. Sound familiar? I thought so. So fuck it. I didn't expect much better than that, and that's what I got, so I can't say I was disappointed or let down. But honestly, I am. Disappointed that is. I'm listening to "Nobody Knows" by The Tony Rich Project, and that's exactly how I feel.

I had to let go of certain things because I know I just don't measure up. It's like a game of Jeopardy. Would you go on that show when you know you don't have any fucking idea about the answers? Or would you go on Soul Train if you knew you couldn't dance worth shit? I didn't think so. So since I can't measure up, I run and hide. Couple that along with how some people just want to use you and it makes for a horrible combination.

Let's review: the people I know aren't really my friends. My cell phone is like a crisis hotline. I don't meet my so-called friends' standards. And none of this surprises me. Yeah, that pretty much sums it all up. I'm not asking to be blood brothers here, all I'm asking is to be treated equally, and maybe with a little decency, like everyone else who gets their fair shot and chance to be someone.

And I'm proud of my father. How much have you profited from his hard work, huh? Yeah, that's what I thought so why don't you shut the fuck up already.

By tomorrow, I'll have repented and probably will delete this. Feel fortunate if you all got to read it.

Adieu.