Use it or lose it...

So they say. I have to do something. I've regretted my actions before, but now I just want to take some sort of action. Anything.

"If there's one thing we know about humanity with certainty, it's that they are masters of self-destruction." The same has been said of myself. I suppose it goes with the territory, even if I'm scared shitless of my genealogy. I have to face the facts, and that is the world doesn't stand still while I hide out in my room. I need to talk to some people right now.

I think that maybe I don't fear failure, but rather judgment. And that, my friends, just may be my salvation. Fuck what the world around me thinks, because I'm the one who has to live with the shit that I do. If you don't like what I have to say, stop reading. If you want to help, just smile at me and let me do what I have to do.

There Goes My Baby - The Walkmen