I might be young, but I've got a Ph.D. already...

In fact, I think I might be the world's foremost expert on procrastination. It's 6:28 in the morning and I'm just starting my 6-8 page research paper. Granted it's a rough draft and only needs to be 3-4 pages today, but still...

Most of the time I long for people, for a time passed, or for a memory of something that made me smile. Few times do I wish for a place physically. I miss my old apartment so much though. I was listening to John Legend a little bit ago, and it made me remember so much of the past 8 months, and it wasn't a good thing. So much was so good back then, and I gave it all up when I moved out of there. That apartment facilitated my livelihood, and I loved everything about that place. I've been thinking already of where I'm going to go when the year is up here in August of September, and I have even considered going home to my parents' house. It's a scary thought, but with some negotiation, I think it could actually work out. It wouldn't be long term, just maybe 6 months or so. That is, if they'd have me.

I don't know if any of this makes sense, and it might have something to do with the little amount of sleep I got or the insane amount of Rockstar I just drank, but it's what I'm feeling for the time being. I want to talk to a few people, especially those 2 who make everything better: Sabs and Kara. Actually, just superfriends in general make things better. I can't understand how I managed to get through the shit I used to into without them around to help me through it all.


I'm tired, so please forgive me if anything is misspelled, sounds repetitive, or just plain doesn't make sense. I want some donuts. On an unrelated note, I am thinking about what this spring break will entail, but also planning ahead for the summer. I've been thinking about getting a second job and just work my ass off all during that coming time. It'd be nice to have some extra money to take care of things but also for the impending senior year in my near future. If I can manage to stay afloat, this time next year will be my last quarter. Pray for me, I think I'll need it. And maybe by that point, if I'm not back home, I'll at least be back at my old place, living it up like the days of old.

She Don't Have to Know - John Legend