I was lost, but now I see...


I think I can understand things better now. You can't be expected to comprehend everything if you don't have all the information you need. But I have it now, despite the fact that the manner in which I came to posses this knowledge wasn't the way I wanted. What are you gonna do, ya know?

Figuring things out isn't the joy I hoped it would be. I think that somehow, I might be worse off in the end for seeing the truth of everything now. Then again, nobody ever told me the truth wouldn't be hard. The truth hurts. Isn't that what they say? I think so. I hope so, because then at least this might be normal.

But this sure isn't, at least not in the quantity that I've been consuming.

Oh well. The truth will set you free. That's what they also say, isn't it? Again, I hope so, because then all this turmoil I'm going through on my own won't be in vain. At least I'll have something to show for it, Besides the scar I carry now. So much time wasted, so much more to go, and in the end, I don't know where I'm headed. The open road is beckoning. "Wide is the gate, and broad is the path, that leads into temptation." Yeah, that open road. Because when everything is said and done, I don't think the other road is an option anymore. Nice job, Gabriel, nice job.