Lying in your arms, so close together...

Didn't know just what I had. That's what the song says. And really, I do miss her badly. I'll admit that here. I'm going crazy, wondering what the future brings. But the good thing is I'm over the slump that I found myself in this past weekend. Man, I never saw any of that stuff coming, but now I feel as though I'm a stronger person for it all. I love my family more than they'll ever know.

The one future event I can't figure out is what it's all going to be like in the summer. In comparison to last summer, it'll be a weird, alternate reality of sorts. Living in the old place, but with a different person, with a different set up and different, new people. Bizarre. But still, they'll be the people I love and want to be around. I really want a place to live where I feel comfortable. I don't feel that here, and I really want back in to where we used to live.

Most of all, I just want her to come home.