Just in general...

A mind of your own? I thought you were special, I thought you should know...

That's how the song goes. Personally, I never say what I'm thinking. I get a lot of shit for that on a lot of fronts. But you're talking to a guy who was judged so harshly for so long that I'd rather have an opinion and not share it than disclose what's going on in my head and then have to stand up for it or defend myself. Can you really blame me though?

Nobody knows me. I can't say that my friends don't have a good inclination as to what makes me do things or what my reaction might be to certain events. But overall, you think you have some omniscient idea as to why I am the way I am, yet you don't.

Fuck you. And not to be rude, but fuck your mom too.

There. I feel better now. I don't mean this as an attack on anyone in particular, but I'm sure at some point you might have felt this way too. When everyone is looking at you and the gaze of their eyes is becoming unbearable. When their reasons don't make sense. When nothing in this world makes sense and you wonder if that means you're ready for the next.

Life will be better; I'm a little angry. Sorry, no happy ending today. Unless someone can fix my mess. I'm so close but it's like I've run out of gas a mile from the finish line. Even if I push the car past it, I'll come in dead last. Nothing could be more accurate.

Pack your bags and head for the county line. I think that's the best way to start off this week. Job's done.