At least...

This is not an illusion...At least I don't want it to be anymore.

What am I beyond what I've been for the last 3 years? I'd like to think more. I can feel my grasp on my life slipping out of my hands. This hostile takeover isn't what I expected. Go fuck yourself. I need my life back. I just now realized what's been dragging me down for the last year.

It's you. Fuck you and your mother. Don't be rude.