The connecting theme among them all...

...is me. I'm the only thing that's remained the same throughout all of the different avenues and roads I've navigated down in the last few years.

I heard someone say last night that they constantly thought they were dealt the wrong hand throughout life. I think it's the complete opposite for me however, because my dilemma is dealing with how I've destroyed some of the best things in this world. I'm beyond self destructive...or at least I was. If I've learned anything in these years alone, it's that I can see far ahead enough to know when enough is enough.

Or at least I hope so. Sabrina and I had the same thought, that people drink because they like who they are while drunk. They think it lets them become who they can't be while sober. I think it makes me funnier, more charismatic, but really, that stuff is already inside of me. So it's more a question of becoming who i want to be on my own.

It's early, but I feel like I've been sleeping for far too long. And I honestly cannot bring myself to go to that wedding today.